SO MANY QUESTIONS.....YET, NO ANSWERS?

Growing up as a kid was rather unstable for me. So many things happened in my life, and i couldn't figure out the reasons why. Infact, i hardly knew that i was supposed to learn from my experiences back then.

This affected me so much that i grew up confused and frustrated, moving without direction. I was on a move but didn't know my destination. And it was more frustrating because there was no one to guide me. And even the ones i confided in would turn their backs to mock me. It was that annoying.

But as i progressed in life, God (in His infinite mercies) helped me to find my way back from the dark path i had walked into. Of course, it was not an easy comeback, but i'm glad that He came and rescued me. Now, it took me a while before i could have my mind (still on that process though) transformed. My thoughts had been corrupted with the negative ideas i had acquired from the past, so God began to teach me new things, and i was ready to learn. I won't say i have been the best of students, but i'm glad i have the perfect teacher who is always patient with me because he knows my frame.

There were times when i got so tired of certain levels and needed God to speed up the whole process. In the process, i would leave God behind and go ahead and do my own thing (because i 'believed' that God was 'too slow' for my liking). The end result would be disastrous, and i would find myself asking God to take me back again, as if He was the one who left me in the first place. Many times i cried, asking God so many questions, but it felt as if i was being ignored because there were no answers coming. So i thought.

Things went on like this for a while until i settled down (that's what we need; to be settled) and asked myself "how best can i get to that place; the place of purpose?". And suddenly, it dawned on me that i had been in so much of a hurry and had not allowed God to take me there Himself! I was impatient because i wanted to have it all in a flash. And instead, all that i got in a hurry, vanished in a flash!

That was when i asked the Lord to take over (Now playing in my head: "Jesus take the wheel" by Carrie Underwood. LOL!). I couldn't do it on my own. I kept making mistakes and it was time to allow the PERFECT FINISHER take me to my place of purpose and destiny. Today, i'm glad i made that decision.

Friends, someone is facing this same situation; you are confused and don't know which way to go. You are on the verge of giving up, breaking out, going the opposite way. But i can boldly tell you that if you can just endure a little longer, you will discover that you were just about giving up at the very point where your breakthrough has been all along! "But it seems as if God is so silent!". It may feel so right now, but believe me, He is busy handling your issues. Sometimes, you don't just need the answer to your questions, but there are other things that you can learn about if you are patient and trusting in God. That is the key; TRUST. Trust gives birth to hope.

Never feel alone, because there is someone who cares for you, and He is always watching over you. I leave you with these words;
MAY THE JOY OF THE LORD; THE JOY OF KNOWING THAT HE CARES FOR YOU, THE JOY OF KNOWING THAT HE IS ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU, THE JOY OF KNOWING THAT HE LOVES YOU, MAY THAT JOY STRENGTHEN YOU, NOW AND ALWAYS!

Yours truly,
VIV!!!!!